New Heart Lyrics

Mirror World
Written March 11-27, 2001

Walk around the block
In my brand new shoes
Joy surprises
What have I got to lose, got to lose?

The crown I'm wearing proudly
The carpet all rolled out
The wolves are howling
What is this all about, all about?

How my face has changed
Though thoughts remain the same
All because of a certain girl
I enter a mirror world

Slowly through the glass now
Hoping no one's near
Another step,
I start to disappear, disappear

Climbing up the stairway
Sky's not high at all
Kings don't hear me
And they make me small, make me small

How my face has changed
Though thoughts remain the same
All because my head's a whirl
I enter a mirror world

How my face has changed
Though thoughts remain the same
Inside I found a girl
Inside my mirror world
Inside my mirror world
Inside my mirror world

Skies
Written August 11, 1998

Run away from your nightmares
Hold my hand, I’ll take you there
Want to take you for a ride
Leave the ground, take to the skies
To the skies
To the skies

You love to stand out in the cold
There’s a purer place to go
Snow keeps falling from your eyes
Leave the ground, take to the skies
To the skies
To the skies

You know I never said these words to anybody else
But when the sun comes out for fun
The coldest ice just melts
And I’ve got water in my chest
Give me time to rest
And I’ll be ready
Ready to fly

See us soaring side-by-side
Now we have a place to hide
Breaks my heart to see you cry
Leave the ground, take to the skies
To the skies
To the skies

Secret Sister
Written February 1, 1998 - March 11, 2001

I wanna get closer to you
I wanna get closer to you
I wanna get closer
I wonder if my message made it through?

You’ve got my kind of soul
You’ve got my kind of soul
Just my kind
It’s spilling out like water from a bowl

Why don’t you answer me?
Come on, dance with me
We may find ourselves out on the ledge
Don’t look down
Don’t look down
Don’t look down

There’s a hunger in your eyes
There’s a hunger in your eyes
There’s a hunger
Like angels falling from the skies

Why don’t you answer me?
Come on, dance with me
We may find ourselves out on the ledge
Don’t look down
Don’t look down
Don’t look down

Secret sister, please don’t go
I’ll crawl inside your suitcase
After the show

Leaf
Written 2000

Memories of fading summer heat
Branches stiff and bittersweet
A yellow leaf is tumbling
A voice of life is mumbling low
Soon will cease
Autumn winds
Blow and blow
Where will it go?

Spring was full of merriment
Charmed with life’s bewilderment
Could it last forever?
Knowing it could never be
Still was glad
Thousands of friends
Filling the trees
Warm and green

The leaf has touched the ground at last
Shading the dying autumn grass
Lies and then at last found
Raked into a mound and burned
Smoke will rise
Embers glow
Spring returns
Nothing learned


New Heart
Written on April 17, 2001

When did you start to fade into a phantom?
Take to the shadows?
Did you notice the symptoms
Coming on?
You once believed nothing could stop you
They beat you down
All dreams you made untrue

Look what you’ve become
Do you feel young?
Do you feel dumb,
Only because you don’t know the answers?
Do you feel young?
Do you feel young?

You’ve got to claw your way through the madness
Fight for a reason
Lessons learned from the sadness
Take to heart
What made you think you wouldn’t stumble,
Superhero?
That’s what you need to keep you humble

You come undone
Do you feel young?
Do you feel dumb,
Only because you don’t know the answers?
Do you feel young?
Do you feel young?

Tell me you
Remember how it feels to
Remain true
To all your hopes and all your fears and dreams and
Never lose
The strength to keep on running
To a better tomorrow
When will it be tomorrow?

There is a road that each of us travels
Don’t know the reason
At times the miles unravel
Call it youth
We never know what days will send us
For ill or better
We only have what time lends us

Now here it comes
I feel young
I feel young
Today the wind is pushing behind me
And I feel love
And I feel love

New eyes to see the world with
New ears to hear the message
New mind to understand you
New heart
New heart


What Used To Be
Written January 24, 2000

As we sat there all night
Staring at the screen
Nothing seemed beyond our reach
Nothing we couldn’t dream
But the dancing night
You cried and I ran away
Chasing an elusive girl
My conscience held at bay

What used to be
Is no good to me
What used to be
What used to be
Is no good to me

Notes I once flung
Ringing from the stage
My mute confession telling all
My cute, well-mannered rage
The lonely times
I spent among the crowd
Empty-headed martyrdom
Desperate but proud

(Repeat Chorus)

Your red-suit splendor
Took me by surprise
Your tender kisses warmed my cheek
And color splashed my eyes
But somewhere there
I saw I’d lost my place
Once I removed the mask you had
Mistaken for my face

(Repeat Chorus)

Back Right Turn
January 31, 2001

I’m a snake, coiled and hissing
I’m living a life but I know
Know there’s something missing

I shed my skin but it’s too slow
Someone tell me where to go
Turn away from the lies
Success and control

Get it
Take it
Take a back right turn
I’m feeling pretty cold
And I’ve only got my soul to burn

I’m a river, slow and muddy
Every town on every bend
Wants to be my buddy

Still I try to reach the sea
How much farther can it be?
Get away from the land
Land that’s feeding me

Get it
Take it
Take a back right turn
I’m feeling pretty cold
And I’ve only got my soul to burn

Paper Airplanes
Written December 10, 2000

The airplane flies
Over my head, and
It’s all right
One of a thousand
Distractions that
Propel me onward
Away from life
And still I ponder
Why, so high
Does it fly?

It begins with thoughts
And all that could be
Broken down
By what it should be
Pen and ink
Bring their distortion
Paper lies
In like proportion
Then, again,
It begins

Let it go, watch it fly
Too high
Silently dives
Above our lives
Put a dream into words
And fold it all away
Yes, you may

Don’t know what it is
But I can taste it
My memory’s clear
‘Cause I’ve erased it
Saw the light
And I was blinded
The answer’s real
But you won’t find it
There, somewhere,
If you care

Let it go, watch it fly
Too high
Silently dives
Above our lives
Put a dream into words
And fold it all away
Yes, you may

There’s a feeling
Above the name
Faded pictures
Fall from their frames
Paper airplanes
Burst into flame

Alone and Fading Away
Written June 22, 2001

Weary, cold and leery of all souls
Daring to stop and caring
Who watches me

The edge feels nearer
I stumbled today
And I can’t hear her
Call though she may
Alone, alone and fading away

Losing heart and choosing nothing but
Sorrow; hope that tomorrow
I’ll smile again

The words are failing
Hope goes astray
The train’s derailing
Brown turns to gray
Alone, alone and fading away

Sleeping, tired of weeping, feeling like I’ve
Lost me, falling softly in
Desperation

The edge feels nearer
I stumbled today
And I can’t hear her
Call though she may
Alone, alone and fading away


Pyrrhic Victory
Written January 12-14, 2000

The torch is cast upon the remnants of the life
The bridge will burn unto the ground
The river glowing red
The things that she once said
Lost as before all this was found

The days of joy, ghostly dancing through my mind
The nights of pain no longer lost
I had to stand and turn
A Pyrrhic victory earned
Wonder how dearly it will cost?

I lift the cup and drain the hard and bitter sorrow
And pray for sleep and gentle rain
The fight is over now
Nothing to make me bow
Except the stirring in my brain


Dry Spell
Written 2000

If I had one wish to spend
I’d want my teardrops back again
Once they kept the dust out of my eyes

Sun is rising, hope still sinks
Always thirst and never drink
Sit here waiting while tomorrow dies

I curse and I pray
But this heat won’t go away

Dry spell
Dry spell
Dry spell
Dry spell
Rain is falling all around
‘Cept the group where I stand

Digging deep for what it’s worth
Sky won’t give, so try the earth
Nothing lasts, but this may surely try

I curse and I pray
But this heat won’t go away

Dry spell
Dry spell
Dry spell
Dry spell
Dry spell (You're blinded)
Dry spell
Dry spell (In my head)
Dry spell
Rain is falling all around
‘Cept the group where I stand

Who can bring an end to this dry spell?
Who can bring an end to this dry spell?

Maya
Written 2001

I’ve been wrong
Wrong, I admit it
I’ve been long
Long coming to this place

I’ve been right
Right in the wrong way
I’ve seen light
Light when the day
Is past and gone

I sit through a movie
And wait for it to start
Thought I was the star
But I don’t understand the part
Meanwhile, a planet
Is dying at its heart

Had in my head
Had in my head I knew you
Had in my head
But I must admit that I was looking through you
Had in my head
Had in my head
Had in my head
Don’t know who

I’ve been gone
Gone though you saw me
I belong
Belong in the places
I’m not supposed to go

Lost girl in the alley
Slept in the cold again
Gold-plated mannequins
Are building garbage bins
Meanwhile, a planet
Is losing its spin

Had in my head
Had in my head I knew you
Had in my head
But I must admit that I was looking through you
Had in my head
Had in my head
Had in my head
Don’t know who

Retrograde
Written on July 5, 2001

He stood upon the mountain
Giving out free trips to hell
And to those who would follow
Poison with a candy shell

See them walk the wasteland
Happy singing out of tune
Wearing broken glasses
Put up their hands to hide the moon

What’s the way to walk today?
Tell me so I can move the other way

I’m going retrograde, retrograde
I’m going retrograde, retrograde

See the glossy pictures
Issued by the style machine
The essence of the surface
And who you all will want to be

A created race of giants
We’ll show you close-ups of each pore
You’ll laugh each time they stumble
They’re not human anymore

What’s the way to walk today?
Tell me so I can move the other way

I’m going retrograde, retrograde
I’m going retrograde, retrograde

Make it stop for a moment
Relentless pull of IQ drain
Listen to the silence
Or will it make you go insane?

I’m going retrograde, retrograde
I’m going retrograde, retrograde
I’m going retrograde, retrograde
I’m going retrograde, retrograde

Pariah
Written August 13, 2001

I sell insecurities
The only ones you’ll ever need
But voices are whispering
To follow in thought and deed

I don’t know what it signifies
But heads are beginning to rise
Mouths are dropped open
And eyes are growing wide

Dancing and singing a tune
Daring to dream I’m as good as you
Was I made in His image too?
Once I thought I knew

Words get louder now
Changing from whys to hows
Turning away so they
Don’t have to hear a sound

Where are they taking me?
Could they be setting me free?
Slow down for a minute
Please let me enjoy the breeze

Dancing and singing a tune
Daring to dream I’m as good as you
Was I made in His image too?
Once I thought I knew

Once I thought I knew
(Afraid of knowing where I belong)

All songs written and performed by Wendy Hearl. ©2002-2022 Wendy Hearl.